One day away from 36weeks

I am huge really really huge. I've gained almost 50 pounds,3.5 stone or 22.5kg
And shallow as it is I'm sure that my stretch marked stomach will never be decent again without surgery ( But I still dream that it will deflate nicely after delivery.
Another thing it's so close now it's crazy any time in the next two week give or take these babies will be here. We have no clue when and no clue how (vaginal or c section due to the many limbo issues with this pregnancy.
I have had so many complications in the pregnancy which have led to 26 weeks of bedrest pretty much.
I worry about my babies especialy my little boy but also my girl
Anyways theres pages and pages I could right of all my fears,scares and potential problems but I don't want to.
I want to have some happy memories of this time.
Which are my babies moving from those first tickles at 17 weeks. To real kicks at 21 weeks my babies have come so far. Growing and changing. I love them so much. Both me and Dh do.
I love sharing these moments with Dh and I didn't have a normal pregnancy and it certainly wasn't easy. But there are some things about this pregnancy I wouldn't give up for anything.

lucky to be where I am today a message for those still waiting

Photo from almost 26wks
I'm now 28wks+1 and although it's been a very hard journey so far I'm incredibly blessed to have these two little ones inside me.
And I feel guilt Why me? It's not fair there are so many more women I know from Youtube/Facebook in particular who deserve it just as much and there still waiting.
I'm praying and hoping for them daily. All I can say is,
if it happened for us after 7 years one pregnancy loss,5 iui's and 2 ivf's it can and will happen for you I just can't promise you when Only He knows that.
But when it does happen your pain of all those years will be eased it does not go away but the bitterness fades and like me you will remember the others still waiting

update from whenever to here 19wks+3days

I never ever update anymore which is sad but I'm always either tired, in pain or stressed out or just plain distracted. I'm huge now I'd attach photo's but I haven't a cable to connect my camera to my laptop anymore.
There are lots of things stressing me now adjusting to the irish healthcare.
I pray that my babies grow strong andd stay in there in my womb until May.
If this pregnancy improves physically I will start updating again properly.

7wks2days

So Today I'm 7wks2days each day is like a rollercoaster I'm up and down each day.
The main drama now is my morning sickness which was nausea every day until yesterday que terror and fear and panic.
It came back in waves later in the day.
And today its still nothing like it was last week. I don't know i'm hoping and praying its normal.
I honestly thought I Wouldn't get sickness at all but then it started at 6wks1day.
It could be easing up becauase I Changed my diet and reduced my acidic food intake just so I could eat.
I've had two ultrasounds one at 5wks4days which showed twins and one at 6wks4days which showed twins with heartbeats.
Tomorrow its time to go again . Couldnt be more nervous hope both of my babies are doing ok.

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The fear involved with Pregnancy especially after infertility

So here I am today I'm Five weeks Pregnant.

This time last week I found out the wonderful news which has changed our lives.
So first beta was 10dp5dt =419
Second beta was 14dp5dt =1881

But the happiness brings with it a bucketload of fears.
It took us 4 years to get here Four years of very active trying.
3 years of medical assistance.
Surgery ,5 iui's ,1 failed ivf and now finally this Second ivf sent us broke but brought us the ultimate joy.

Just waiting to 12 weeks to announce it to the world Although so much family know already.
But for now its baby steps every day every week is on achievement.
First Ultrasound at 5wks4days on September 30th.
I keep telling myself do not build yourself up to see the hearbeat its probably too early.
But I'm just so hoping :-)

I'm tired,dizzy,on/off cramps,bloated and oh so hungry.
And a new found sense of smell. Some headaches and random blocked nostril.
Need to pee once a night usually.
Cravings Salty, pickles ,tomato juice ,tomato and cheese everything.

If you read this please Pray for us and our babies I Really love them so much and feel so blessed to be pregnant. And I pray they will make it safely to full term.

It's our time after 4 years I'm PREGNANT

So Ivf number two worked theres a baby or two or three in there now.
I've never been so happy and worried at the same time.
Beta was 419 at 15dpo (10dp5dt) Next beta tomorrow praying for good results.