Still waiting To get this show started again

Eek I'm so sick of waiting.
I was over optimisticly hoping AF would show up early
But no, still not here supposed to arrive 2moro.
Which will be day 14 of my injections so far.
I'm afraid of two things either that I'll be not shut down enough or I'll be too shut down.
I have to go for my next blood test Whenever is cd1
but if its tomorrow than I have to wait til day 2.
Either way I'm back at the doctor on monday to get more meds.

I can't say how much I know I'm lucky to get this second chance at IVF.
I hate going through this but I need the hope that it might work this time.

It's super stressful because we don't have enough money to be doing this.

I would feel guilty if I had the chance to do this for free like in many other countries,
But at the same time I wish we did have that.
Then we'd only have to worry about taking physical limitation breaks instead of the much longer financial status induced breaks.
Of course no country covers more than 3 free IVF cycles so if thats not enough anyway your on your own .
But that would be a massive help.
Still considering moving to one of those countries just for that option.
But maybe this time will work ;) damn there are just too many 'buts' and 'ifs' in INFERTILITY.
Nothing in life is guaranteed but even moreso in our situation.